in guatemala, kinda homesick. talk about third world country living. at least it´s not sweltering hot like it is in taiwan though. that´s a relief. otherwise i´d be on my way back to LA right now...so finished my first 7 hours a day lessons and I think I will go crazy. but hoping for the best. cuz there´s not much else I can do. at least ron  and david are here. although since they´re living with other host families, I don´t see them that much. I´m taking 7 hours for the first two weeks, and ron and david are only taking 4....so...I don´t see them that much cuz of the time issue either....oh well adjusting shouldn´t be too bad...

me? knowing spanish? no way! but let's hope for the best...Guatemala for a month. lol kinda scary. glad ron and david are gonna be there...

so I hate meeting parents...and dammit I've had to meet TWO sets...AND grandparents...in ONE week....gah.

Sometimes it's hard to keep things in perspective--not to be a 'gunner' but instead live my life the way I want it to be--not how others think I should live it. That's why I chose to come back to California in the first place. However, coming from an Asian/TAS background of people always thinking you should go to a 'brand-name school,' (or of ignorant Taiwanese only knowing about a small handful of American institutions) it's hard to step off of the blind rat-race.

You'd think I would have learned my lesson already and not have to struggle with this. I went to Hopkins purely cuz they were known for their pre-med program. I hated it there--I was completely miserable. Applying to med schools--I knew I would only be happy in Calfornia, but I still struggled to choose between here and NYU, and even considered Duke! ugh! I'm so happy here now. What with all the studying and stress, I know that if I had gone to NYU or Duke I honestly might be a regular at the school's psychiatrists' office by now.

All I want to be is a doctor--internal medicine--in a suburban area in California. I don't want to work at one of those hospitals. The reason why they're known is because of their research, and most of those hospitals usually force their docs to do some form of research or another. Tie me up and torture me, but you still won't be able to force me to do research. blech.

last week before summer. friday = cumulative exam

down in irvine, studying and procrastinating

weather is so nice in california. my sister just graduated from TAS, so I got to thinking about Taiwan this morning. I am so thankful I'm not there right now in the sweltering heat.

so this taiwanese dude wanted to friend me on facebook today. said he "wanted to meet other taiwanese people." what a joke. I'm prob the last person who would wanna fall under that category.